prettykitty

Well I have done it...

I have uploaded my very FIRST YouTube video. *cries*

This was 5 years late but it has now been done!
I'm so noob to all this. I don't know how to even get my video out there for people to watch. 
So for now its just a video diary that only myself knows about. 

Recording was a nightmare to be honest.
I probably recorded 3 different tag videos 10 times over but they were all awful. 
I was so nervous and my voice was shaking. I would do stupid shit like stutter and laugh like a man. But eventually I hit a moment where I was feeling pretty good.

So I smacked that record button and went with it. 
Then Voilà my first uploaded vid.

I must admit, in my other recorded ones it felt as I was trying to be someone I wasn't by acting a certain way that I thought would be pleasing to the viewers and put me in a good light. 
But to be honest. That's not what I want at all.

Like imagine having to keeping up a second personality all the time. Trying not to slip up and show the real me where people would notice.
I decided fuck it and upload a vid where I am completely my goofy awkward self and keep it real as possible. 

Although I may be somewhat holding back but that's just my natural reaction to being nervous. 
But ultimately what you see if what I am in real life. 

There are so many you-tubers that I've watched where they just seem like the perfect girl.
So poised and graceful.

Then there's me...

Awkwardly trying to clarify that I'm not a man. laughing like mental person at myself. 
And you know what? I'm not going to be scared to throw in a swear or two. 

I mean obviously I'll cut back to cater for younger viewers I may have but everything these days have curse words. 

And curse would just happen to be a part of my everyday vocabulary lol.

I'm no sailor but come on guys lets KEEP IT REAL.

When your surprised you say "SHIT!".
(Well at least I do haha) 

I hope I don't come across as a wanker or anything but like I said I want to be comfortable being me and nothing but me. 

I currently have 5 views hahaha. Well I think 5 are from myself but they were me checking out my page to make sure everything is OK. So basically I have 0 views hahaha.

Anyway I'm gonna leave my video right here for you to see for yourself. 

Leave me feedback if you thought it was good/bad. I need to know what I should be working on. 

Oh and awkwardly if you could like/subscribe that'd be great too.

To be honest that's the worst part. I feel like such an asshole trying to plug my own channel. Definitely something to get used too. 

Anyway thanks and have a good day!